Journal entry about the 3 month old

 I recently found out that my husband’s youngest child — the only one he still has custody of — is back in the NICU. From what’s been shared online, the baby apparently stopped breathing and nearly died in his arms.

I reached out to my mom because she always seems to hear things through her wide web of connections — she finds out things we don’t even ask about, like the fact that my grandpa is dating again. But through that same network, I learned more about what happened that night.

It sounds like the situation was handled in a way that makes me really uneasy. I can’t say exactly what I know or how I know it, but it’s terrifying to think about. I keep saying that this baby might end up being removed by CPS — and now I’m scared that if something doesn’t change, the outcome could be even worse.

He couldn’t care for his older children when they were healthy, and now this baby is fragile and struggling. It breaks my heart to see the same pattern repeating itself.